Before it was given a name, it was rain without drops, without sound,
it was rain in slow motion, regretting the many times it slapped against
the ground, regretting its relentlessness. It was rain resisting its temper,
attempting tenderness. It was rain that wasn’t rain at all, it was
snow, snow without the cold, without the sting in the air, the ache, the
chill, snow out of place, out of date, out of season. It was a tropical
dream, new breath, a break in reason, a pause between sun and rain and
sun again and rain. It was treasure from the sky, a secret we found out
first, a prize for being good girls. It was reason enough to refuse to
sleep, reason enough to get up at three in the morning, reason enough
to step out to the pavement and hold up our arms to what was snow but
not snow, rain but not rain, the world around us turning pale, the world
bled of color.
In a minute, somebody will wake up, somebody will be frightened by the
open door, will stumble to find us, will tell us to get in, will ask why
what is falling from the sky is falling. We will hear the word volcano,
we will learn the name to fear. But right now, when there are no labels
yet, we lift our faces in thanks, our faces turning pale, what has yet
to be named resting lightly on our lashes.